Whether it’s due to perfectionism, some sort of latent guilt-complex in my DNA, or mommy not loving me enough, if I don’t blog for a few days, I’m overcome with a sense of nervousness and agitation. If I don’t post for more than a few days, my pathology approaches scratching-my-eyeballs-out levels. Such is the case in which I currently find myself.

In the last three weeks, I’ve taken three separate three-day business trips: to Beijing, to Shanghai, and back to Beijing again. This may be nothing to you frequent fliers out there, but for me, it’s thrown me into mental and organizational chaos. When I get back into town each time, I’m frantically attempting to get back on top of things; in the process, I’ve neglected my beloved blog.

The only reason I’m not “offing” myself right now stems from my reflection on why I’m blogging. As I indicate here, the overwhelming  reason for my blogging is to learn. That is, throughout the process of blogging and reflecting, I’m extending myself into areas that I might not otherwise explore. Perhaps that is what I’m missing–not the blogging itself, but the reflection it necessitates. Regardless, if my blog becomes a “task” and not a vehicle for joyful learning, it might as well be a job, and I prefer not to go there with this particular activity.

So here I am blogging again after a couple of weeks of inactivity, and regardless of the rationale behind my blogging, I am once more at peace with the universe.

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